
27th August,i was walking through the lane of the lonely pavement of my Department with a thought in my mind.
Only few people could be seen far away from me.Pavement where i walked was wet and reflected the faded images of the trees branches and leaves above it.
Water dropped from the unsymmetric axis of the leaves.Some dropped on my hair,that made way up to my top most skull skin and then down to my ears and some to my face.Above the trees,lighter clouds were visible and the thunder sound was audible too.
It seemed rain had bestowed its beauty again on the earth and made the air around our university better to breathe.
Air seemed to be palying with the thoughts of mine,
it gave heave to a tender feeling of someone's absence.
I didn't know whether the feeling was fragile or genuine.
But i enjoyed the process.Life really starts to go into another step with such tender feeling.
The tender feeling that the air made to heave out was a thought about a girl (name i don' t know, where she lives i don't know,in short i don't know anything about her but the feeling for her was
genuine), whom i had seen three months ago.
Then i had felt something about her (i usually do not get attracted to girls at first sight only) but it was not strong enough.
But that particular day was a turn around for my feeling for her.
Walking through the pavement ,i suddenly got the faded thoughts about her, and the thoughts became more vivid.
I felt if she would be here again,a distance far away, so that i could see her,in some or the other way.Those abrupt feeling was a real booster for me , i had never enjoyed such feelings in my life.
To my surprise,an hour after,when i came out of my department talking with one of my best friend on my cell,i saw someone similar to her a distance away from me.
she was around forty-fifty feet away from me
.As the distance between me and her decreased at a slower rate (as i was glaring at her ,if she was the one that i thought,and she was walking at her pace) her face became visible
and to my fortune or mis-fortune (which i don't know ) she was the one walking forward.(i was not sure whether she saw me or not,as i was standing quite far away from the pavement).
I felt as if i should talk to her.But there arose another thoughts that were,"what should i ask her?" ,"how to start the talk?","How should i introduce myself?".There was also a fear ,if she
didn't show any interest to talk with me.But "one thing" stopped me from going ahead.
And i really do not regret for that "one thing" that didn't let me go ahead.
If i had approached i know that she would not have shown any kind rejection to talk with me.What i know about myself is that,I have always being good with girls and girls too were good with me.
During my school days i had learnt a great deal about girls.I really respect girls for their wonderful traits and the generous feeling that they have within their small-heart.
But there is also lot about them that i do not know.I think that a life time would be less if i go into research in this subject.
But the main headline is that, Life has to go on.And i am not wrong to say that it really goes on.
What i always ask to myself as a second person is, "What is the progress in my life?"
I just answer to this by saying ,"So far good,expecting something more of its kind in some form ...".
What i believe is that life need to have some variation or some spice added to it, in some or the other form ,so that life doesn't get saturated.
And i can bet with everyone that no one wants their life to be saturated.
hmm...
ReplyDeletewelcome to the journey as a blogger .....but who's dat girl????
"that girl" is a mystery for me,who provides me with immense pleasure,when she is left away from my presence."Something is worth to be enjoyed in some different form".
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